Someone told me today that my standards are too high. The circumstances under which these words were spoken to me don’t really matter. The bottom line is this…I was faced with a situation which caught me off-guard. I found myself in a position of having to choose my principles or lie. So when I was asked a very direct and pointed question I chose to answer with the truth. Ever since then I’ve been condemned and abandoned.
It hurts more deeply than anything I can express that people who claim to love and respect me expected me to do anything different. Yet! I am told my standards are too high for people to live with.
I ask you this…what was I supposed to do? If I had gone against everything I believe in and stand for by lying then what good are my principles? What purpose does it serve to say you believe in one thing but do another?
My name is Waterbird/Weighs The Truth for a reason. Truth is the number one reason for my existence. Even if I try to justify any excuse for breaking my own code of ethics it doesn’t work because then I’m only lying to myself. I will not, under any circumstance, betray my name by speaking in a deceitful manner. What is wrong with this way of thinking? And why is it such a high standard to live up to?
Once upon a time I had faith in humanity. Once upon a time, on more than ten occasions, I have discovered how absurd people can really be. It’s a sad, sad state of affairs. It’s not like I gave away military secrets. If someone shares a confidence with me and someone else asks me about it I simply state that I am not at liberty to speak. But if I am asked to commit subterfuge, well, I simply refuse to participate at all.
Here’s the thing. My ancestors have had the burden of heavy lies and deceit for way too many generations. Too many games were played against them they couldn’t comprehend and I made a promise to them a long time ago that I would seek out the truth in their honor and memory.
It is my belief that if everyone would choose just one thing they believe in and then walk their talk; this world would be such a better place. After all, we live in an exquisite world. It’s only we human who screw it up. No laws are ever broken in the natural world. People are the single species who break the laws.
Sometimes I wish I was a dog.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
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